Wednesday, January 18, 2006

When I Get Where I'm Goin'

Last night I was flipping through the stations and I stopped to watch some CMT. I admit it - amongst my love for Green Day, the Killers, Foo, etc., I still LOVE country music. There is just something about the twang that gets me. I'm sure it's in the genes considering my family is all from the hills, but I stopped to watch because I heard Dolly Parton. Any true country fan stops when Dolly sings. Well - it was a Brad Paisley song that featured Dolly and it was called "When I get Where I'm Goin'". It's about losing someone you love - I stopped immediately and thought about my dad. Sorry for the sad post, but here's the lyrics:

When I get where I'm going
On the far side of the sky
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly

I'm gonna land beside a lion
And run my fingers through his mane
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here

I'm gonna walk with my grand daddy
And he'll match me step for step
And I'll tell him how I missed him
Every minute since he left
Then I'll hug his neck


So much pain and so much darkness
In this world we stumble through
All these questions I can't answer
So much work to do

But when I get where I'm going
And I see my maker's face
I'll stand forever in the light
Of his amazing grace
Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will love and have no fear
When I get where I'm going
Yeah when I get where I'm going

Ok - so it's sappy to let a country song touch you. It's sad to cry over something like that. But, this hit home for me. It actually gave me some comfort because I have never fully recovered from the death of my father. I watched the video of people holding photos of their loved ones (some famous) and tears streamed. It was like a release - not closure, but a release. Occasionally I need to cry it out.

Then, I pulled out a layout that I did about 3 years ago about my dad. Thought I'd share it here. Some of my friends have already seen it. It's not the best design but it conveyed what I felt and still do.

Sometimes it just feels good to get it out.


tina said...

Ginger- I remember that layout vividly. It is amazing. Your words, your photos, every single thing about it is amazing.
And, you know what, there is nothing wrong with ANY song whether it be country or pop to help you heal, cry and "get it out". Personally, I don't know how a person ever gets over the loss of a loved one, someone so special in so many ways. But, we all heal on our own time, you don't have to go by anyone elses clock. I'm sure that you miss him more than anyone will ever know.
Have a good day girl, think about the good memories that you have of him,and hold them close to your heart. XOXOXO

Anonymous said...

Go ahead and cry little teddy bear!

Ann Marie said...

I cry at that song too - glad that I am not alone! I lost my dad 3 years ago and its still hard to not cry every moment of the day without him. I tell my friends that I get to look into the eyes of my children everyday and see 1/4 of him staring back at me. Hope that comforts you during sad times!

Julie said...

Doesn't that song hit it right on the head?
Think of good memories and remember the happy tears part.

Heather said...

Well I am the biggest NON country fan but so glad to hear a song gave you a much needed release! And your layout is beautiful! Hugs to you! :)

Barb Hogan said...

I remember that layout too Ginger! It's so sad that you had to lose your dad so young. :-(

BrandyLogan said...

That layout is beautiful. Your thoughts and photos really got to me. I have never been that close to my Dad, but I am going to make that change all because you made me realize that he could leave the world tomorrow without him knowing that I love him. Thank you.

Belle said...

When I first heard that song, I started crying like there was no tomorrow. I don't know how many times I've heard it and it still makes me cry - it's been nine years since my father has passed away. Mom heard it last night and went to bed crying. She heard it again this morning and has been crying....I believe it also has to do with having a cousin who is going through the same stages my father went through before passing away and we're re-living the whole ordeal. It really hits home...Your layout is a wonderful idea and i feel it's not too late for me to make one for me and mom, and one of my cousin for the family.